these randoms are nonesenseness of me.

I dont want to be happy anymore - not. Or maybe my life is just way too boring especially now that i dont have someone or something that makes my day giddy just like before. hrrr. i want a new phone. i lost my phone again or maybe i should say that i gave it away again about 2 weeks ago. now im using this crappy phone that cant receive text when im here at home.

I miss my boyfriend and i feel frustrated of not seeing him. How i wish i can go there right now. But how the hell i can do that? i dont even have a passport. huuu. boo me! :(

There are only 39 remaining days for me to review for the coming board exams. what happened to my plans and study habits.. bad.. so bad. i want to take the exam right now just to stop this fucking anxiety im feeling which started about 6 months ago. fuck! fuck! fuck! this is severe anxiety. FUCK!

I want to die.